by Zoe Hinton
Ahsoka Tano. She means something different to everybody. For some people, she’s just another Star Wars character. To others, she might be a character that they don’t really care for much, for whatever reason. But to me, Ahsoka Tano is a character that always has and always will be my favorite character out of anything ever.
Ahsoka is a character that means a lot to me and you can tell that from the costume I wore the first Halloween after Clone Wars came out, from the hours I spent crying after she left the Jedi Order, from the shriek I made when she made her first appearance in Rebels, from the tears I shed when she fought Darth Vader in the season 2 finale. You can tell from the Disney Infinity figure sitting on my desk where I am writing this, from how I’m tearing up right now while typing this out, overcome by emotion from thinking so much about Ahsoka Tano and how important she is to me. You can tell from the shirts in my closet, from the wallpaper of my computer, from the home screen of my phone. You can tell from how I jumped up and down when an Ahsoka book was announced, from how I sobbed after watching the Ahsoka panel off the Celebration livestream. You can tell from the fact that the first words I practiced when I was learning Aurebesh were “Ahsoka Tano lives.”
My relationship with Ahsoka has only grown stronger with each episode she is in, each time she is written about, each time she is talked about. My devotion to her and her character have never once wavered. From the moment she walked onto the screen in the Clone Wars movie all 8 years ago, to the moment, she walked into the temple in Rebels, I have grown with Ahsoka. Ahsoka Tano is a character that I love, that I want to be, that I respect and that I learn from. When Ahsoka was growing stronger, I was following her lead. Being a Star Wars fan since before I could remember, she was the first character that I could truly connect with, she was the first female Jedi to have a leading role. I wanted to be just like Ahsoka, and if we’re being honest, I still do. I still look to Ahsoka just like I did when I was in second grade.
Ahsoka Tano is a character that I have always loved, and always will love unconditionally. Ahsoka Tano is a character that I have always felt was with me, inspiring me, motivating me, and cheering me up. As much as I have cried over Ahsoka Tano, as many of those tears were from happiness and excitement as they were from sadness and despair. I care more for Ahsoka than I ever have any other character, she is a character that has opened my eyes and a character that has made me laugh and smile but has also made me cry.
I will always defend Ahsoka Tano and everything to do with her. Ahsoka Tano was the first character, out of anything that I could look at and say “that is me.” Words cannot express how much Ahsoka Tano means to me, and how much every tear that I’ve shed over Ahsoka Tano feels worth it, because in the end, Ahsoka Tano is a character who I love with all my heart. And to be honest if you’re reading this you probably aren’t as emotional as I am writing this because these words are the best I have and they don’t even come close to telling you how strongly I feel about Ahsoka because those words do not exist. I am sitting here crying as my fingers move across the keyboard, typing words that probably don’t make sense and if they do then they can’t convey the fierce loyalty and love I have felt since Ahsoka first stepped out of that shuttle and introduced herself not just to Anakin and Obi-Wan, but to the entire world.
And this might all sound crazy but the reason I’m writing this is that I am fully confident in saying that everyone has an Ahsoka Tano, whether they’d like to admit it or not. How strongly they feel towards whatever character it is varies but every single person has a character that they look up to, whether the character is a character introduced to them when they were small or if they first saw the character when they were a bit older, everyone has a character that they love and will defend because they truly connect to them in every way. And while some people may feel this way about multiple characters (I know I do for sure) there is always that one character, the character that they put above the rest because that is their character.
And while I finish off this piece because it is getting long and ridiculously sappy and cliché, all I ask is that just for a minute, that you stop and think about who your Ahsoka Tano is. Think about who that character is and what they mean to you, think about how and why you relate to them, think about how they have made you sad and happy and angry and how they have made you just feel more than any other fictional character. No matter who your character is, they are yours, and nobody can take that from you.
Who is your Ahsoka Tano?